One of the first things that Father told me after we found out about my loved one’s terminal cancer diagnosis was this: it’s not about the destination; it’s about the journey. He told me that the journey we would go on as a family would be something that would draw us even closer together, and that it would be a precious thing, something that we would remember and cherish with a heart full of thankfulness and wonder, not a bitter memory that we would try to forget.   Society

The watchman stood on the wall. He looked out to the horizon. Yes alert Watching Seeing Observing Sometimes it was hard being alone. Other times it was good. Then He saw it. A little bit of dust Kicked up in the distance. Just where the Land and Sky meet! He was alert He continued to watch Yes, it was getting bigger. Was it the wind? No It was! It was! Horsemen? Who were they? More alert than ever He continued to watch Then He saw it The colours. Not friendly colours So, He p

Well, this is it – the last Walking Through Wilderness blog! If you’ve been with me on this journey, whether for a short or long time, thank you. Thank you so much for sharing in and being a part of my story, my memories, my ramblings and revelations. My hope is that these blogs have helped inspire you to dig your own well and to press into God as your source of life, instead of looking to other people. Remember to celebrate the victories you’ve encountered, even the little o

I’m walking in the cool of the evening, barefoot in the damp grass of a vast, gently undulating field. I’m wearing a long, white robe tied round my middle with a linen belt. I am carrying a huge backpack on my back, which is weighing me down, making walking a struggle, and I stumble frequently. My Father is walking beside me, he is leading the way. There is a stream babbling along beside us, cutting its meandering way through the field. Light is sparkling from the water as it

Hello again! In the last few blogs, we’ve been looking at the subject of dreams and how, when you’re in a wilderness season, you can lose sight of your dreams. For me, the future became a scary, rather hopeless place. When you want to avoid any more disappointment, you will tend to shut down your dreams, goals, and any hopes for the future, and just focus on surviving one day at a time. That's what I did. I need to say at this point that, compared to millions of people all o

When you’re in a wilderness, the most natural mindset to adopt is one of survival. I talked about having a ‘survival mindset’ in my last blog, and today, we’re going to take that one step further. There is another way of thinking that is just as detrimental as a survival mentality, and which often goes hand in hand with it: a poverty mentality. These two negative ways of thinking are similar in that they both have an engrained mindset of helplessness. The survival mentality

Hi, and welcome back. Last time I shared with you about a traumatic experience I had at a creative seminar I attended. On that day, I realised that I no longer had any dreams, and that hope had been banished from my heart. Everything came crashing down; I was in shock. How had I let myself get into such a mess? I asked Holy Spirit that question, and He told me that I had been living in ‘survival mode’. Everything I did was subconsciously designed with the aim of just surviv

I remember feeling sick. A stone lay in the pit of my stomach, along with a sense of immense panic. What was wrong? Why couldn’t I do it? I was at a creative workshop, in a session focused on the power of our imagination and our ability to dream with God. The speaker used an analogy based on C S Lewis’s book “The Lion, the Witch and the Wardrobe”, brilliantly brought to our screens in the Chronicles of Narnia films. In the film, a large wardrobe was the doorway that led to a

Today, we bring to a close the theme of ‘Free to Be Me’. The process of understanding who we truly are, who God created us to be, is a long one. However, it is so wonderful when you get to the stage when you are able to say that you not only love who you are, but you actually like  yourself too! For many, many years, I couldn’t say that. I didn’t like myself. I sort of loved myself, because I was told that, if you’re a Christian, you must love yourself, otherwise you’re rejec

A new year begins. It's like opening a brand new journal. The fresh new pages waiting to be written in. What will this year bring? The word that I woke up with on the 1st of January was. Intentional The dictionary definition - To be intentional means to act with purpose, making deliberate choices and conscious decisions that align with your values, goals, and desired outcomes, rather than just letting things happen to you.   I want to live this life intentionally. To stop and

When I was praying about this new year, Holy Spirit gave me the word 'streamline'.  In my experience, as Christians, we tend to get very caught up in 'the new things' that God is doing in our lives, based on that amazing scripture in Isaiah 43:19, 'Behold, I will do a new thing; now it will spring forth.'  Our hearts want to embrace the new things, to serve God more, to be a better version of ourselves, to get a new vision and do even greater things. Those are all good things

What is God Doing? Almighty God will draw his people closer and secure our position in His Kingdom. He is maturing the Saints and moving us into position faster than we thought and in ways we never imagined. The maturing will seem to happen overnight, and for many, that will be the case, as the things that have held us back will suddenly be removed. The last piece of the puzzle will be placed, and the picture will suddenly be revealed. This year will be known as the year we,

Hello again, and I hope you've had a great start to your new year! There are just a few more blogs left in the Walking through Wilderness blog series, and today, I want to continue our theme of ‘Free to be Me’ by drawing lessons from one of my favourite movies of all time – The Lord of the Rings. I’ve watched it countless times and yet, even now, every time I watch it, Father speaks to me, or shows me something new. It speaks deeply to my heart about the battle that rages, t

We have entered the Hebrew year 5786, aligning with 2026. The number six is represented by the Hebrew letter vav—visually represented as a hook, peg, or connector. It is also the connecting word “and,” a joining point between what was and what is coming. But not every connection is meant to continue. Six is the number of man (Genesis 1:26–31), signalling a year where God works through people, partnerships, and alignment. This will be a year of divine connections—but also divi

Stop looking backwards, start looking forward.   Recently, I have spent a lot of time looking back in time. I am a historian, so that is where my natural gaze goes. There is value in looking back, remembering what God has done, and celebrating his goodness. We share our testimonies of God’s actions in our lives to encourage each other to do it again in his power and favour. We also look back in order to examine ourselves. We look to see whether we have anyone to forgive, or t

Two of the most important questions anyone can ask are, “Who am I?” and “Why am I here?” The answers to these questions form the basis of our identity and many of us spend our lives pursuing them. Who am I? What makes me, me? Why am I here? What’s the point of me? What have I been put on the earth to do? The ongoing quest for identity is a massive pursuit, one that usually continues throughout our lives, but, in my experience, it never seems more prevalent than when we are

So, now that you know a bit more about spiritual seasons, let me ask you this: Do you know what season you’re in right now? Do you know what your heavenly Father is doing in your life at this time? If you’re still not sure, ask Him. You might not get a quick answer, but don’t worry, that’s not a problem; in fact, it’s part of the process. Father loves it when we ‘press into Him’ for the next piece of the puzzle, talking with Him as we journey. Our walk with Him is full of my

Hi! We’ve been talking about different seasons in our lives, and in my last blog, I spoke about the parallels we can draw in our spiritual lives with the agricultural seasons. Last time, we discussed ploughing and planting, and this week we’re looking at...   Waiting, weeding and watering So, once you’ve prepared (or ploughed) the soil of your heart and planted your seeds (invested time and energy), you move into the next phase: I call it ‘waiting, weeding and watering’. Ofte